Month: September 2019

20 wks has come round and I think I’ve taken a turn… .
1. I’m starting to accept the amazing news I’m pregnant and things are going well
2. I’m starting to realise work needs to slow down – as I need to put my wellness first
3. I started my first pregnancy Pilates class which I enjoyed – despite the anxiety that comes with new situations
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Positive affirmations help a lot and despite my pregnancy not being easy so far – I’m half way and this is everything I have ever dreamed of…
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Bring on September 👌😘
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I love seeing my husband holding babies 😍 it always reminds me of what an amazing father he’ll be one day. I feel it when I watch him playing with our puppy too. He’s such a fun, kind and caring man. Today marks 6 weeks and I’m still living in constant fear that it’s all just going to go away at any moment. We have another week and a bit to wait until our first scan, which is torture! I’m convinced there won’t be a baby in there after all. In terms of symptoms, I’ve swung from having the appetite of an elephant, to nothing sounding appealing and feeling full easily. The last couple of days I’ve been totally exhausted and I’ve been quite crampy, which has seen me on knicker-checking duty each time I go to the loo! I’ve spoken to a few friends about the anxiety of early pregnancy, which has made me feel a little less manic about it, but honestly, until I see a little blob next week, I’m just not sure I can believe it’s actually happening. Thankfully, I’m travelling with work for a big conference this week, so hopefully that will keep my mind occupied at least a little bit! #6weekspregnant #earlypregnancy #pregnancyanxiety #ttcafterloss #pregnancyafterloss #pcospregnancy

Day 3 resting and vomiting. So really, not much resting getting done 😂
I’ve been ever so slightly spotting over the weekend, and I’ve checked this morning and its slowed even more. Yay! Hopefully that means the blood clot is reabsorbing.
I’m so close to getting excited and being positive about this pregnancy, its scary. I don’t want to incase it all goes wrong… So torn. So tired.😭😂
I hope this week passes quickly.
Love and baby dust to all xx
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Fashion while pregnant
Unfortunatly many women who desire having children in the future are worried about fashion. Rightly so. Questions of what will I wear? Will it be really expensive? How will I manage to look beautiful with a big ball? There are many ways to embrace the Bump. You can still wear your xs dress as I am here in a marcuano xs dress. You can still wear tights, jeans, heals, t-sirts, dress pants & chic light weight blazers. You just have to find ways to do it. One easy & possibly free option is reaching out to your trendy, in style friends who recently had babies. Ask them if they plan on selling, keeping or willing to give you there cloths. You can also find consigment stores & sale sections from your fav store. The trick is to use stretchy material so it can allow for your growing bump. If your concerned about stretching it too much, dont worry. Washing in hot & drying in hot will shrink it. Just remember to do it timely , don’t keave it there for 1hour. Or you can try steaming, wetting in cold water drying in dryer & lastky drycleaners ask them. Maternity pants typically become a must eventually. Having at least one pair in black can be enough. Heals to wear are usually low & with a block style heal, no stiletoes. Make sure to check all of this with your Dr first. Remember pregnancy gives a glow our job is to embrace it. If acne is braking out try natural solutions, a mild soap bar wash everyday, stay hydrated, teatree spot treatment & others you can find on google just check with your Dr. When pregnant we dont have to worry about a possible roll or awkwardness from the stomach because the front is simply doing its own thing. So enjoy fashion during pregnancy dress the way your most comfortable & dont be afraid to wear a fitting dress. –
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And the days that followed my miscarriage were dark. Then the weeks became fog, I would like to say that the fog also lifted but it doesn’t really, you just turn your torch on and learn how to navigate the road onwards.

People try to say the “right thing” when you explain. When you swallow the lump in your throat to explain that there was a baby and now there isn’t. That you had two hearts and now you only have one and it’s broken. I had people say “at least you had a taste of being pregnant” and “about peanut size..” and “you’re young, try again”. The thing about miscarriage is that there is no answer usually as to why. And even if you do know why you’ll never know why the universe had to allow it to happen to you, to your baby, your body. Miscarriage robs you of the future you had in your hand before it was snatched away, that hurts whether you are 4 weeks, 9 weeks, 18 weeks and on. I wrote my bunny a letter the night before my procedure.

One last night with you, that’s all I get.
But even then i know you’re already gone.
I wasn’t ready for you to go, but the universe had already taken you away.
I ache for a little life I never knew, but truly love, my soul is broken without you.
You were already so loved and so wanted and I already miss you so much.

I toss and I turn and I wonder what I did to have you taken from me.
I am angry at myself for even one second being naive enough to think that we would be allowed to be together and happy.
I talked to you and prayed for you every day.
I realise now if prayers and love were enough you would be here my little darling. You had people lining up to hold you, guide you and be with you in this world sweetheart. You were already so loved and wanted, but its not up to us.
I don’t understand I probably never will.
I wonder if there is a little person in someone else’s belly, playground or classroom who will go through life searching for their soul mate only to discover that you wont be coming because you were taken before you got a real chance. (Continue in comments)

21.01.2019 • The day my nightmare began.
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The morning of 21.01 I woke up feeling soooo much happier than I’d felt before. I had had my nephews stay over that night. We stayed up late playing games and eating and laughing. When I woke up in the morning I felt in such high spirits. I went out to B&M to buy some new homeware. When I got home to my 2 nephews and boyfriend still sleeping I turned the music on as loud as possible and began singing and cleaning around the house until eventually they all joined in😂 I got dinner on whilst the boys were in the bath and that was when my pain started. My stomach was cramping like never before – I felt like I was losing my baby. I called NHS 111 and they told me to go straight to A&E. My family and friends convinced me that this was just normal cramping in pregnancy as I hadn’t bled or anything as of yet. We waited in the waiting room for around 2 hours before seeing triage and another 2 before seeing the doctor. Luckily my brother picked up my nephews shortly before I saw the doctor.. Everything from then was a blur. The doctor told me quite matter-of-factly, insensitive and down right rudely that I had miscarried. I hadn’t bled?? I had passed no tissue? This man has got to be crazy or maybe just stupid😶 (continue on next post) –
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🤞🏻I know every pregnancy is different but I don’t actually remember puking with my angels 😇💖 🤞🏻 praying its a good sign. Two days in a row now. I need a shower. 😂
I am still spotting but have come to accept that I might be one of those women who just bleeds on and off throughout. Maybe. It makes so much sense now after having the ultrasound and discovering the bleed. So I’m trying not to worry. 8 more days til the next ultrasound. 💗
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My tummy at almost 10 weeks ❤

Hearing baby’s heartbeat a few days ago and seeing baby move has made this pregnancy all the more real 😍 I watch and listen to the recordings several times a day, so happy!!! ❤❤❤ No migraine today, yay! And my nausea is not as bad as most days. My moms nausea would always subside at 10 weeks pregnancy, maybe it’s the same for me? Would be awesome!

Also: proud to wear my “warrior stripes”. My friend calling them that, instead of stretch marks, and saying I earned them as proof for fighting for my dreams, made them cool to me 🙈 I’ll probably get many more during this pregnancy, but that’s alright ❤

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