Category: What Is The Best Pregnancy Test?

For the past 2 weeks I have been so sick…. About 6 weeks ago the company I worked for did a huge lay off. I was only there for about 4 months and it was a great gig! I was disappointed to be apart of this lay off to say the least. I couldn’t understand the purpose. About 2 weeks after I was laid off, I found out that I was pregnant. (Laid off and pregnant… you can imagine the stress I felt) The first few weeks were fine but at around week 6 my “morning sickness” became “all day sickness”. The nausea, acid reflux, lack of energy has been so awful and unexpected and all I can say is Thank God I was laid off because I sure wouldn’t be able to go to work like this 🤢… moral of the story: God be knowing lol. #firsttrimesterblues #momtobe #mom2be #firsttrimester #pregnancy #earlypregnancy

Today I had my repeat blood test to check hcg levels…. 3 attempts of blood & needing to drink water to rehydrate me. Bramshaw called me back within 4 hours with my results, hcg levels have dropped 60% in the last 2 days. That’s all the they need from me now so 🤞 next time I’m at this hospital it will be for my early conformation scan.
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The thing about pregnancy loss, at least for me, is that there is no escaping the mental pain. There is no taking a break from it, because I am the cause and the source of the pain. There is the constant reminder in the cramping, in the drip, drip, drip of blood.

After my first two loses I was able to, after a time, dust myself off and focus on continuing the journey towards having another baby. It meant I didn’t process those loses properly, but brushing them aside was easier, it was possible. I don’t have that this time.

This pregnancy was a total chance happening. I have worked so, so hard the past year at accepting that another baby wasn’t going to happen, and when I saw that second line on Wednesday afternoon it was like a massive weight was lifted off my shoulders. I was so happy and excited, I swear I floated out of the bathroom I felt so light and free. And then my body failed me. Again. And I hate it. I mean, I really deeply, darkly hate my body. It fucked up my only chance. After the past few days I know that I’m not able to risk going through this again, I can’t take the anxiety, I can’t go through another loss, I think it would break me. I think I have broken.

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Just a quick update. The spotting seems to have stopped. I’m still afraid, but hopeful that I’ll make it to my appointment Monday morning. For now- I’m still pregnant.
The whole rainbow and storm analogy is really resonating with me right now. If this baby really is my rainbow, it doesn’t mean the storm is over. It won’t be until I’m holding my healthy baby in my arms.
So I’m trying to allow myself to just be here- in this storm. I will go through whatever it takes to have my rainbow.
Thank you everyone who has sent me messages, commented, said a prayer, or even just given me a passing thought. I feel like I have so much support and I’m so thankful.

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I’m so sorry, little one, I’m so sorry.

January is the month a lot of surprises are realised! The month after the ‘party season’ can mean a missed period and that surprise positive pregnancy test! In a moment your life changes!!!
September is a busy month, for this very reason. I was one of those with a January surprise😮
Who has found out they are expecting? .
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10 Weeks today.
App says baby is as big as a strawberry 🍓
I couldn’t decide if we should take this photo or not since unfortunately I’ve just had some spotting. But I decided to do it anyway because right now, I’m pregnant.
I don’t know if the baby really is as big as a strawberry. They could have stopped growing. I don’t know if I’ll get to take another sweet photo like this next week. Miscarriage steals the joy of pregnancy.
At my ultrasound at 7w3d everything looked great. They did tell me that I had a small subchorionic hemorrhage and I may see some light spotting but I also may not. I chose to believe the latter because I knew even the tiniest hint of blood would send me into a tailspin.
I spoke to a doctor after hours tonight and described exactly what’s going on and she was very reassuring. She told me she honestly thinks that’s what’s causing the bleeding and that baby is fine. But all I can do is wait and see, unless I want to spend my evening in the ER.
We’re also currently experiencing the largest winter storm we’ve had this year so I can only imagine what the ER would be like right now.
I have an appointment Monday morning already. Right now, I’m refusing to accept this as another loss. I’m not giving up yet.
I’ve said all along in this pregnancy that this baby is a fighter and I truly believe that with my whole heart.
So tonight I’ll be drinking tea, watching trash on TV, and trying to override my urge to panic.
Please hang on little one. I want to meet you so badly, but not yet.

A transvaginal scan and two attempts of blood later, my miscarriage is confirmed. I will be back at hospital Sunday for more bloods to check hcg levels are decreasing and to check their is no chance of pregnancy happening out side of the womb (nothing had shown up during transvaginal scan)
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