9 weeks! We’re the size of an olive 💞⁣ ⁣ I’m happy to say I’ve been SLIGHTLY more relaxed this week. As is got closer to my scan today (9w+1) the anxiety crept back in, I also lost my limited symptoms which didn’t help! ⁣ ⁣ My husband and everyone else is getting really excited now, the fear they had seems to have left them now but I’m still not excited and I feel so horrible and guilty for feeling that way. I just don’t think I can fully accept that this pregnancy is happening. I’m trying, I really am and I am SO SO grateful to be sitting here 9 weeks pregnant. I’m sure as the weeks go on the excitement will come. Has anyone else felt this way? I can only assume this is part of the pregnancy after loss process. ⁣ ⁣ Today we saw a beautiful heart beat and little are and leg stumps, oh an apparently the start of a nose 💞 Also we are measuring spot on for 9w- so we have caught up after measuring way behind last week 🙏🏼 Because I’m a little insane and can get so anxious we are going to book another 2 private scans to see us through to the 12 week mark 🙏🏼⁣ ⁣ Symptoms this past week:⁣ ⁣ 🌸 Mild Nausea on and off- more so when hungry⁣ 🌸 Mild Tenderness in boobs - on and off⁣ 🌸 Heightened sense of smell⁣ 🌸 Indigestion/ Heartburn⁣ ⁣ For reassurance for anyone out there- these symptoms have come and gone and sometimes vanished completely!⁣ ⁣ Love and Baby dust to everyone! ⁣ ⁣ #earlypregnancy #scanxiety #earlypregnancysymptoms #pregnancyafterloss #pregnancyafterlosssupport #pregnantafterloss #pregnant #pregnancy #9weekspregnant #8weekspregnant #10weekspregnant #pregnancyaftermiscarriage #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriageawareness #infertility #pregnantafterinfertility #rainbowbaby