I’m scared and I don’t know who else to turn to.⁣ I know how difficult this will be for some to read, I’ve been there and watched many people posting their bfps wondering when it would be me so I understand if you need to unfollow me, but I need a safe place to express my fears, thoughts and my joy. A joy that I hope we all one day experience. ⁣ ⁣⁣ Let me start off by saying I am incredibly grateful to be pregnant, we didn’t think this would happen... naturally anyway. We were due to start our IVF in 4-5 months. Whilst we were still trying I was no longer obsessing or charting properly ect as I described in my last post. I was obsessing about buying a house and a new job and have put ttc to the side as we waited for IVF.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ We are over the moon, but I am petrified! I’m trying not to stress but pregnancy after loss is hard. I have no symptoms- which my rational brain knows is totally normal at this stage. Every cramp is scaring me, I’m constantly on knicker watch! The day I got my BFP and the following day I woke up to brown spotting/Cm ( gone now thankfully ) hoping this was implantation... I’m too scared to take a CB digital incase it doesn’t progress as I think it should and causes me more stress and now I’m worrying that my lines are not progressing as they should 😩 My head is a minefield now!Again the reality is I’m only... about 16dpo 🤦🏼‍♀️⁣ They are probably perfectly on track! ⁣ ⁣⁣ I’m so aware how sensitive and upsetting these posts can be for others- I’ve been there myself so many times and I understand if you have to unfollow me but for anyone who can I could really use some support about now- I’m aware that we’re nowhere near or of the woods yet. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I am sending you all SO much love and baby dust, I wish everyone gets their BFP’s soon and my rainbow baby sticks around 🌈💞⁣ ⁣ #pregnancyafterloss #pregnancyaftermiscarriage #rainbowbaby #pregnancyannouncement #pregnancy #fertilityupdate #fertilityjourney #bfp #4weekspregnant #5weekspregnant #earlypregnancy